Big Mouth

Everyone struggles from having a big mouth at some point in their life. For me it’s everyday of my life. But that’s how I was made. But when it hurts others being so honest, upfront, open, whatever it is I am, it can seem like a curse. I don’t know how many people I have hurt or how many times I have hurt them through what I say. I don’t mean to but it just slips out. The amount of letters I have had to write to mummy having said something that hurts her is uncountable. There are times I have gone and cried in my room because I feel so rubbish for making others feel rubbish.

So how do I fix this? If I’m honest, I don’t know . I’ve tried but it doesn’t seem to work. Maybe I will always be the honest, open person who only has a few friends because no one else understands that I don’t mean what I say in the way it has been interpreted. Or I could keep trying, but sometimes I wonder where the point in that is. I’ve tried to think before I speak but most of the times it’s really difficult. (Unless I’m not speaking at all) I don’t know.

What can I say to all the people out there who are like me? Try to accept it but don’t just blame your openness for every insult. Also, if you do have the power to change it…please do. There’s really not much else I can say.

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